Here we are, quite happily. Lost inside
Insanity.
I was away for a while there. I had to take a
vacation and think about things and be myself and find myself and all
that crap. My three-year relationship is over. I've moved to
Jersey. I'm dating a lesbian. Because that's just how
life rolls.
Something you should know... I don't plan on
writing about my sex life on here anymore. I don't want to
embarrass the women I see, and I don't want them to be embarrassed
with me. I do plan on making a separate site and posting
entirely about my sex life over there. Totally anonymously of
course. Because I like to write, and some of my best stuff comes
out when I'm talking about the morass that is my dating life.
All the illicit stuff I get up to will be over there. I'm afraid I
can't share it with you here anymore. And no, that site hasn't
launched yet, so don't go nuts trying to find it. Once it's up,
maybe you'll find it on your own. Good luck with that.
I'm
still working for the gay porn company. They gave me a
promotion and everything. Now I have even more power over gay
pornography. Like if Jubilee was taken over by Apocalypse.
I
know I'll never be a writer, which is cool because I have not really
aspired to be one. But I enjoy writing, and will be doing so
here on the site. You may not agree with everything I say, but
I don't really care. I'm not writing for you, I'm writing for
me. I like knowing that people are reading my stuff, especially
if it brings some sunshine into their lives. But I am here first and
foremost for me, so please try not to get too upset if I say
something you don't like. I want to create a tapestry that makes me
happy. You can watch me do it, but please don't tell me how to make
my own. You can make your own elsewhere if my words make you sad.
My experience in the world of porn has led me to start
up some side project sites. I have a few porn blogs, one of which
actually got its first affiliate sale (earning me a whopping $15)! I'm
also developing a tube
site (like Pornhub but legal), because that ship hasn't quite sailed
yet. My experience in the industry has shown me that these things
have pretty good conversion rates and great traffic. If I can make
my own and have an extra $100 or more a month coming in from dorking
around on the internet, wouldn't that be cool? It is not my goal to
be the next Pornhub. I'm not shooting for the stars. I'm just doing
this for side income, which I believe it can provide.
The downside of tube sites is that they
use an insane amount of bandwidth. I have no idea how they actually
afford their hosting bills. I've found a way to circumvent this
though, because I am a sneaky motherf***er. I have a front row seat
as emerging technologies are unfolding. I have a leg up that other
people don't. And rather than just sit back and let my job be a job,
I'm putting the experience I'm gaining in that job to work for me. I
am getting an education that you can't buy, working my way up from
the bottom and paying my dues. In this industry, it's the only way. You
can't go to college to be a pornographer.
And it gets to be a goofy fun adventure
at the same time, how great is that? Why would you not try something
like that if it interests you? Sometimes I just do s*** like this.
Women tell me they find that endearing. “You don't care what other
people think. You just do what makes you happy, I think that's
wonderful.” Cool, thank you. I doubt you'd feel that way if
raping kids made me happy, but whatever. I've reached a point in my
life where
it feels like the wind blows at my command. Don't get me wrong, I
still regularly face the same strife, failure, and absurd encounters
as I always have, but it feels like more of my life is fully under my
control. The bad stuff just doesn't get to me as much as it used to
anymore. Or if it does, I've been through enough similar scenarios
to know how to navigate the thing and make my adversaries look like
fools. I really am morphing into a trickster character. That
drawing
was rather prescient.
Seriously, have you ever had anyone
just draw a portrait of you? Let alone one that puts you alongside
different beings of myth and folklore? This stuff just HAPPENS to
me. It is my DUTY to document it, for doing so makes me and others
happy.
Oh, I'm gonna switch things up and give
everyone an alias now. The last thing I need is one of my friends or
associates getting Google-linked to me telling a fisting story. I
have grown quite paranoid in my old age. Being an internet
detective was cool when I could do it and no one else could. Now,
when any doofus can enter your first and last name and get your
address and tax records in two seconds, not so much.
I'm sorry this is kind of long, it's
only been like two years since I wrote anything of substance.
Another great ripple has entered my
life. It turns out I look like Justin Long. He won't stop doing
movies and being The Mac Guy, so now people tell me I look like him
all the time. Two guys even asked me for my autograph. It's just
another way my life resembles a terrible sitcom.
Alright, I'm off to program things and
celebrate the new day. Eat more hot dogs, they're delicious. Sex
mp3.
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